Fuckk

I hate my life. So much. Shoot me. Or not, w.e imma go cry myself to sleep

Wellll yesterday

Was scary/fun. My "special" friend came over and after that we went to a lil part of the woods near pur school with some boys, and we had started a lil campfire thingy but it was day time and someone called the cops and me an my fran ran like hell. Then we covered our tracks then the boys told us the poliecman just said to put the fire out. Lol then one of them told me they were gonna get some weed and if i wanted some. Fuck i really wish i hadnt have said no. And on friday one of those boys went up to a priss and called her a bitch. I fuckin love him :-D and...ummm....idk. Oh and we got off campus back finally :-) ok well...thats it i guess

Mr.Scale i love you :-)

I thought i was still 125-130 ish and im now 121-123 my scale kinda sucks tho cuz its not electronic :p and my tummies rumblein :-) i feel amazing

Hows school?

How is it? Fuckin drama. Frirst hour is science which is borin as hell then I have pe with preppy bitches and mean boys and im the outcast. Theres like 9 of us. I hate it. Then comes algebra. Its borin to but its also the same thing everyday and no one messes with me on there so its ok. Art is 4th hour, and i have no friends in that class but i still love art. Then luch time. I always have a powerade or water. I hate eating at school. Then history which is fine then shop class then english. I like creative writing :-) but right now i am kinda pissed at myself cuz i ate an activia just a minute ago. Its 70 cals. And right now im tired and want to cuddle :( but all i have is a stuffed animal. And now i dont want to sleep cuz i just ate. Ugh. And my bestfriend moved away so now i have like no support at school. I have only one friend and i fuckin love her and some bitch was bein mean to her and called her fat. That was her "friend" who has become a preppy bitch. I just wanted to hold her and kiss her and tell her shes beautiful but i just hugged her and told her she was not fat. I love her and if that bitch says that again imma kill her. Speakin of bitches my ex was talkin to me and some preps were tryin to get outta the gym were there are two doors and they kept pushin on the on he was sittin on then that bitch made a comment and walked away then my ex said "bitch" then she came back and was all like "wat did you just call me?!?" and hes like "i just called you a bitch" i fuckin love him :) as a friend. Then she said "you better not say that again" then walked away. And shes one of those girls who wears clothes way to small for here and clumps on makeup. Shes sucha bitch :/ well imma go to bed naow. Bye. And imma try to rite on here more. Oh and im joining the fbla fccla ffa and art and drama club :)

Oh god!

Thank god! Shes not pregnant :-) even if it was positive id still love her tho :-)

When im alone

I realize that im lobely so i cry, then i eqt then i gain weight. Thats gonna stop. Im never eating again >.< oh and today i had gym second hour. With people i hate and the fuckin idiot boy infront of me kept jumpin up and PUNCHING THE FUCKING BALL!! then wen i hit it *RIVHT* and actually TRY i friggin get glares. And they purposely never hit it to me. I got it like 4-6 times. Then i heard some cunt sayin "shes not doing anything" even tho i was fucking trying. Qnd algebra SUCKSSSSSS! ugh i have a headache. Imma go cuddle with my unicorn and fall asleep. But first i have a letter to someone


Dear self,
stop eating you fucktard. Your fat and ugly and even the kds at school think so. You discusted me! I hope you die. Why do you exist? Your a worthless piece of shit. I only say this outta love tho. I will try to help you, AGAIN. god. Just dont fuck up like you always do.

Sincerly,
Me

Ps. No one reads your blog. Your not interesting. Get over it.

Hayyy

Im srry for not posting recently. School and stress has kept me hella busy. And tommorow i gotta go back >.< and yesterday all i did was babysit brats so i didnt get much of a weekend. Oh and at our school some dumbasses ruined off campus for all of us by leavin trash in the lobby. So now NO ONE can go off campus for a fuckin week. Assholes.