A.b.c. Starting

Starting the abc today. Idk y i even blog :p anyone else actually readin this? Hell no. Y would you O.o

3 day binge

This has been day 3 of a binge. Im stopping rite now and fasting. Abd starting tommorow imma start tannin again.my birthday party is saturday so i need to fast for a bit. I walk a mile a day so im going to start walking two. Well im done rambaling. L8r





Ps. Im 138 now. Not 145. Also im 14 as of wednesday last week :p

Shes in the hospital

She is. Im happy shes getting help but i miss her. Im all alone now :-/ idw blog rite now bit wayeve. And i gotta go to school wed. On my BIRTDAY!!! First she gets hospitalized then i have to go to school. I cant breathe, i cant sleep, and i will not eat.

DAMMIT!!

Srry fir postin so much but my mom just said i have to go ti a party on the 25th. I HATE partys im an antisocial peraon and id i go i no they'll make me eat. I hate parties! And my mom DEMANDED that my room be clean by then. I HATE IT! Srry just pissed off right now

Today.

Today was, well, idk. I had 4 doughnuts wich was 230 calories (they were the mini doughnuts) then i walkes to the store to burn them all off. So my ner callories is like 0 right now. Not a very exciting day :-/

I fucked up. Big time

Title basically says it all. She hates me :-/

Pointless

Summer, to me is pointless. All it is is a time for everyobe else to play in the sun :p im pasty and have a rash all over me. I have decided to change all that. I have decided to tan, clear all the rash up and get a bikini. For myself and to destroy the heart of a boy who has destroyed me. I hop it works. If not ill still be happy because i shall have more self confidence :) thats all for today, imma go take a nap.

FML!

He's there. I hate him with a passion. I want to die. Why him? Why not me? FML i am so worthless.

Why?

I know you deserve better, but i just want to be selfish and steal her and have her as mine and only mine forever. I hate him because she loves him, i hate him because I know he'll end up hurting her. Love is just one big mind fuck

PrettyThin June 2011 - PrettyThin

PrettyThin June 2011 - PrettyThin

Hurt

She loves me, but she loves me not. She loves him not me. It hurts and has shattered my already fragile heart. No matter what i will always love you, my beauty.

This is the begininng

This is my blog. I just thought i would introduce myself. I am... Well ill just call myself chapstick. Its easier that way. Maybe i get comfortable ill say my real name, but for now its chapstick. Okay now, a bit about my life. Im almost 14. Ive had a weird life in the begining but its calmed down a bit. Its still pretty f***** up tho. I live at home wif my brother( the antisocial computer nerd who lives in the basement) my mother ( the woman i live but trys to control my life!and never gives me privacy) my stepdad (good dude, kindof a temper but is mostly ok) and of couse the stepbrothers (stepmonkeys. They hate me i hate them. The end.) and two dogs. I have anger issues and got kicked outta school 3 times in two years. (Ill touch more on that later) i also have severe deppresion and i hate food. Im wayyyyy to fat and im trying desperatly to lose weight. My dads an alcholic and was mentally and emotionally abusive. My parents divored wen i was two. I loe animal and im a vegitarian. Dont fuck with me and i wont break your face :) im nice if your nice yo me :)


Ps. I SUCK at spelling :p