God!

Today was spent shampooing our living room.anyother day i would be fine because it burns alot of cals. But ive had like 1900 today. :-/ fuckin hate myself. Imma drink water all nite and work hard tommorow but not eat. Ill be outside in a garden. Hopefully thatll help. Idk i even rite on this. Who the fuck cares? No one. Thats right mollie, your lame.

Its hopeless

My mom just bought a shitload of food >.< ... And i want a naruto costume but its like 70$ >.< i only got 10. Omma need to babysit more. Im suck a fucking lozer :-(

Well today...

Meh. I just wanna hug :-( havent eaten all day. I feel like i dont deserve it. :-/

I hate bein alone at nite.

Thats wen all the bad stuff happens. Idk y but i wanna just fuckin blow my brains out. I dont that therapist is helpin cuz every time i go thee they bring it all back yp after i had almoat sucsefully supressed it. Fuck this shit

Just about dead.

I saw my friend today. I can never let her no how much i love her. She lives a block away from me. I fucking love her. Shes so sweet. I love wen she spends the nite cuz she always sleeps in my bed :-) shes awsome and funny and adorable. I wish she knew..,

Its all over

I wanna die

Fine.

Im just nothing. Im unloved. Im just empty. Not even my friends will talk to me. Why am I alive?

Yeah

Ill live. Im fine, i understand.

You kill me inside. Soon it maybe the outside to.

You took my heart.yes you stole it away until you found anothers. Then you broke mine and threw it away.

It hurt me more than you could ever imagine. Ever since that horrible moment ive been stuck in my own personal hell. Everyday i fake a smile for them but inside im completly fucking empty. Every nite I cry myself to sleep. I knew no one could ever fall innlove with me. You loved me yes. But you wernt in love with me. No one will ever fall in love with me. I am just fat and worthless. The only two things tha bring me joyis wen i see the scale go down. Also i love wen i can see my ribs. Its horrible but i love to see and feel the bones. The otherthing is this site. On here i am not a crazy bitch. I am human and accepted. I am not forced to conform, but encouraged to be myself. I feel like if this was a house i would never leave. Thank you all

Fuck this.

FUCK YOU TREADMILL!!

My dayyyy

Was borin :p my dog keeps fuckin fartin >.< and squeakin that damn toy :p if she wasnt so damn cute id beat her :p

No one is in love with me

Its a fact. I know im loved but no one is in love with me. They maysay they do but they dont. Its a fucking fact. Watever i dont need love. Im fine on my own. Fuck dependence. I dont need anyone :-)

Fuckfest on thin!!'

Title says it all (@_@) i love them all XD

:-)

Ladies on thin beware :-D i iz bow single :-))))

U dont even care.

Yeah sure i guess huh? Really? Fml. I fuckin am so worthless. Im also so pissed off that i cant see straight

FUCKING REALLY?!?

Break up with me for a random dude?!? Wtf?!? I love you and you do this shit. I fuckin hate life. Fuck it all. Ftw. Wats the point? Every relationship ive EVER been in im just the back up. Until they find someone else. If it dont work out then they come back and date me. Then find someone else. That happens then wen they get tired of me they just pitch me like a fucking piece of garbage. Ftw. Im done. I now have noone at all. I will never ever ever be in
a "relationship" again. I will never trust anyone ever again. She was the only one i fuckin trusted but i was just garbage to her. She doesnt fuckin care. No one fucking does >.< ftw

->.<-

Im a fucking fucktard. Binged today. I am so worthless. Fml.

Dear self,
I HATE YOU! your ugly and fat and worthless.
Go die in a hole

Wish i was that cute.

I love you...

...but do you really love me. I feel like i just love you so much but im just there if someone else rejects you :-( you love other people and want to be with them, is that true love? If he breaks up with her would you leave me again? Im sorry i love you so much. Im hopelessly in love with you. And only you. I dont even care about anyone else. I dont think you relize how much it hurts when you tell me how much you like them and want to be with them. I may laugh and joke about it but it cuts my heart a little bit more every time it happens. I hate my fucking life. I am so unlovaable. I dont deserve her, i know it, but i wish she would love me more than them.

HOW DARE YOU?!?

I will fuckin kill you! You hurt my baby girl! You dont deserve to even know her you piece of filth! I hate you and everyone else that has ever hurt her. I swear, one day...

Jess..

I love you so much. An i fucking hate that dexter prick!!!


I did like nuffin today. Nuffin funn... Yeah so.... fuck im lame

Today...

Was one of thos days that is just fuckin pointless. Hate being stuck at home during summer break :-/ got a therapy sesh tommorow so i cant spend the nite wif my g ma. Idk y i exsit. Lifes kinda stupid :-/ and yeah im on prozac but it doesnt help if im locked in a small house all day cuz my mom doesnt trust me to go ANYFUCKINGWERE!! bleh



Im done writin for today. I think imma go take a nap. Got nuffin better to do.



Ps. Samzi, yeah imfine just cranky about being stuck in this hell hole

Meh

I hate it here. I think even my girl hates me. I just wanna curl up and die. I feel so alone and rejected. Idk y i even write in this stupid fucking blog. No one cares. No one has ever cared. :-/ watever.

July 5

Today ive walked two miles and had 820 cals. Fuck :(

Umm.... :-) my girl is finally havin a good day. I love it wen shes happy :-) it seems the earth itself stops and smiles at her :-) shes wonderful and now shes learning guitar and is goin to be rich and famous and forget bout us lil people :-p maybe i shud destroy the guitar!! Haha nah. Wudnt do that. Wen im 18 me an her r gonna go on tour together :-)

thats about it fir today. Other than that playin iblivion and watchin spongebob :D

So far...

665 calories today. Im done. Im goin to do my puzzle intead. I fuckin hate bingeing >.< fml fmself! I weigh 137 rite now

I got.....

Mr. Salad i hate you! U wif ur lettuce! I hAte you! I wanna go spend the nite with my grandma cuz shes got an electronic scale. That girl that follows me want me to go get on the electronic scale.i really hate myseldf. Im so fuckin fat.



Okay so onto another topic....
Yesterday i got a mani/pedi :) it was weird tho i never did that before. Then i got a fluffy pillow and a journal. Im going to write my story day by day as it unfolds. I hope if i do it long anof then i can publish it and maybe then someone will inderstand wat is going on in my head.


.... Ummmm, oh and i got a puzzle i hope will distract me tommorow :-) its a 500 piece.

Thats all, i think. Sooooo later blog, and anyone who is reading this 0.o plz leave a comment if u do kthxbai


-Mollie

Fuck

Ive been seeing a girl every time i eat. No her names not ana. I asked her. Idk i no shes not real but i can just feel her presents or summpin. I no shes not reall but i still believe in her. Idk. Shes pissed at me rite now because i ate to much. Tommorow im fasting. I fucking hate myself. I love
my girl and my friends tho